nothing is ever wasted when given to God

These are not wasted years. God is doing something.

He is doing something, here in the dark, that He couldn't do in the light. He is working something in our hearts and lives, and in the hearts and lives of our children, that we cannot yet understand. I will trust Him! I will trust Him through however many more difficult years there are yet to come. I will trust Him that these years are not wasted, that nothing is ever wasted when given to Jesus. I will trust Him to work good out of heartbreak and tears. I will draw close to Him and cling to Him, to put my hope in Him, and not in what I can do or Keith can do or what we can do together. My hope for my kids is not found in how good of a mother I can be or how good of a father Keith can be. My hope is in the Lord.

God does some of His best work in the dark. I think of a baby, knit together in that hidden-away place in a mother's womb. Some things are meant to happen, are necessary to happen, in the secret and quiet and hidden-away places.

I don't want to fight against what He is doing now in our lives. I want to join Him in it, to be soft clay in the hands of the Master Potter. I want to trust Him, to praise Him in the quiet places when I can't see what's happening, to trust that it's better that He knows than that I know. I don't need to know what He is doing to be able to trust Him.

And even if we never know the reasons, it doesn't matter. We know Him, and He is enough, and His grace is sufficient. He has not left us. He has not forsaken us. He never will. Whom then shall I fear?